Sunday, January 31, 2010

A Year Ago Today...

I was brave.

Oh boy. I remember EVERY detail about that day. A January night in California... A Saturday at that. What a beauty. I was dressed and ready for the biggest moment of my life. A responsibility beyond what I could have ever imagined fell into my hands. By choice. A smart choice. I went to confront the most important man in my life with a prayer in my heart and boom. It all happened. Truth was abound and my conscience was at peace. I spent the remainder of the evening with my two favorite people. My angels.

A year later, life is back to normal, if you will. Maybe if that day hadn't occurred... I would be living somewhere else. But oh am I grateful this day occurred. I'm better, stronger and most definitely happier.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Practicing Patience

One of the most beautiful movies I've ever seen came out on DVD today. Due to the request of my favorite human being on the planet, I must refrain from purchasing this sweet piece of movie magic. Bright Star. You're worth the wait.

Ben Whishaw... So are you.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

The Look In Those Eyes


The feeling of something coming to an end is a peculiar feeling indeed. It is almost bittersweet in the sense that it feels good to accomplish or finish it but there is that emptiness when all is said and done. I feel that way when I finish a project or finish writing a paper. I feel that way after a semester ends and I surely feel that way when summer ends. I feel that way after finishing a good book or when a great day ends. I feel that way today. This particular "ending" left me thinking, in spite of everything, it was a great ride.

As for a beginning...
After a year and a half of trying to be friends with Jillian... She has finally come around! I love my little Jilly Bean! We're best friends.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

As Sweet As A Song

Every once and awhile I find myself thinking about how incredibly fortunate I am. Today was one of those days. I love it all! The good, bad and the ugly. It's a beautiful life.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Keep Them Standing In Line

2009 has come and gone. I could go on forever about the highs and lows and all the in between. Covering the main points would include my pathetic winter, my best two semesters at school, my amazing summer, and so on and so forth. It was a successful year over all but then again what year isn't? I say that if you make it through then it must have been a success. There will always be mishaps and there will always be prosperity. I could surely look back on this year and say it was awful because several setbacks but the good always outweighs the bad. Every single one of my needs has been met. I spend the majority of my time with people whom I adore. Colors that were missing have found their way into my portrait. I have experienced so much joy and comfort, just as I do every single year.

The idea of New Year's resolutions just aggravate me. I feel that if you are going to change something then why is it necessary to wait until the turn of the year to do so. I suspect this is because our human minds can only wrap themselves around linear time and therefore, just as the beginning of everyday, the New Year brings a refreshing start to what is just simply time, which will of course just come and go. Even though I am irked by the idea of New Year's resolutions, I never fail to make them. If I have a job to do you better believe it will be completed and it will be done well. So if there is something of importance that needs to be changed in my life then I do my best. But when it comes to New Year's resolutions mine are all-embracing. For example, 2008: Be more respectful. 2009: Be nicer. So what will it be for the great year of 2010??? Think more before doing and saying. Broad.

The root of my aversion to resolutions is irrefutably connected with my dislike for change. My struggle with change is ongoing and is never easy for me. Maybe, I am too stubborn to want to change my ways. Oh the narcissist that I am...

To be continued...